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Hii! This will be like my article page but with simple entries about pretty much anything I think,,, it's inspired by tumblr accounts, but with that touch of personality!
I would never think someone would like to look inside my mind, but honestly I have that desire over many people in my life and I would love if they had one of these :<
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HELP I'M GIGGLING LOOK AT MY CLASSMATES' CURRENT POV
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New format 👅👅 yum
Am I uncomfortable with constantly editing stuff near the reception? Yes
Will I be comfortable while you're not? Absolutely not, I'm a goddamn people pleaser
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Lol idiots I lived. Upgraded to the school computer and it feels simply so pleasant to finally program on a normal machine after so long 🙏 I was so excited to just grab a computer and randomly finish this that I'm writing with the whole room looking at me yay I'm so unbelievably happy right now I love computers so much (I FEEL SO ALIVE I WANT TO CRY)
I lowkey want to cosplay Chihiro while doing this, people just asked about my code I'm gonna sob help
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Ok so I was in school today listening to danganronpa OST again while drinking my milk and what the absolute F💤CK DID I JUST SEE HERE. This moving thing was genuinely so disgusting,,,, it's the kind of sh💤t Kezamat would eat tbh
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People might think I'm such a cronic scroller when I spent the entire day in school programming AN ENTIRE PAGE ON MY PHONE 😰😰 I feel like Chihiro anddd the page is dropping soon I still can't believe it's phone made
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On this Friday (11feb2026) I will travel to my grandma's house, where there is a lot of delicious foods. I am afraid I will gain weight and consequently be hated even if I just mimic the behaviour of others, I am kind of panicking every second and I physically feel ill and bad for most of my day, it hurts a lot. So I decided to research random facts. It will probably end up with a wiki of sorts
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Everyday more and more I realize he's all I want and need, and I will forever desire him as he is. I love each letter of his name, each light reflected by his eyes, I love him so much. I'm late for school, but I dreamt we didn't go to class and we were in a different University, there was this open field with some aesthetically pleasing classrooms, almost like the second field of our own University, the Sun was setting and I was sad for some reason. I screamed and he hugged me, this reminded of when he helps me with such care and love. I love my boyfriend so much
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I was messing around and I finally discovered my priest character's lore but I don't have anyone to tell, as in I think it is really cringe and cannot seriously explain any character lore because I just conclude it's ridiculous. This is how ideas rot, so why not tell the internet I guess
Kezamat is his name, and it doesn't mean sh💤t. There's an arabic name, Keramat, which means "dignity" or "miracle", but I wanted to make stuff up so there's a Z. He is probably from the Middle East or something and smh he's currently in Germany. He became a priest and quickly ascended to bishophood, becoming the bishop of the Aachen diocese (this is somewhere in the future and he came after Helmut Dieser probably) and the lore I made up is that the story is going to explore questions of faith crises and guilt, as he has conflicting feelings of resigning and living a normal life or ascending to archbishop and consequently cardinal, I love characters that are so indecisive that they can't even conciliate and pacify their own little life, I think in the end it's all an excuse to throw responsabilities on someone and prove that I'm better than them or something. He will eventually become an archbishop and take part on a conclave but he also pretends to be another person for half of the day, it's kinda nonsense since the conclave is closed but it will make sense when I get it together and adjust the mechanics. He will eventually fall into holes such as self-sabotage due to compulsive suffering, where he'll want to suffer for attention and pity but blame himself for not being as bad and as good as he should be with his roles. He also has friends outside the church and it focuses on acceptance at some point, I have so many difficulties accepting people because I constantly avoid religious situations because I feel as I'm being an idiot or forcing my faith (especially when people think I'll have 8389209 unreasonable prejudices due to the historical catholic church which condemned even its own existence at some point) and I want to explore that. This was kind of a vent and I feel like those kids who r like
"My OC will be half cat half princess half god half demon half dog half fox half bug half human and she will have every superpower and pink hair and scars and a crush on the quiet black-haired half demon half whale half crab half anything boy on her class and she will be the hated daughter but she will overcome everything because of the power of love."
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Yayoi Kusama. I want to be like her omg
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I really hate relating to this character. I never watched APH and probably never will because I'm not willing to pay for streaming services, but I have been listening to the songs and somehow knowing the characters since 2024, I find the songs oddly comforting to study or sobbing endlessly instead of recurring to harmful coping mechanisms, today I was listening to the Canada/Matthew introduction song and my player decided that after a comforting, heartwarming song it would play Einsamkeit (Germany/Ludwig's song), and every single time I hear that I sob violently because it was the song I heard on my way to FUVEST's second round last year, I was really scared and thought of staying home, but listening to it made me feel so corageous that I went with no hopes or dreams, now the song means a lot to me. Germany/Ludwig is the embodiment of that trope of cold characters who act like they hate everyone but actually loves their team, but somehow he resonates with me more than any other, maybe because I find that his coping mechanism with not being able to communicate is not being a jerk like the most in this trope but trying to excessively apply discipline and order to cover his illogical world with logical analysis that might guarantee some meaning or at least less confusion. I honestly feel like this isn't real and I just sort of made an oc off him as I didn't watch the anime and don't know what he's like ☠️ I just don't like relating to a hetalia character thats all.
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hi btw I'm doing this to show my bf I can edit neocities on my phone :D hi bf I love you infinetelyyy
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my way of coping with feeling ugly is simply dressing boyish and I think that's much better than most of my other mechanisms :v And the freakiest part is that i discovered I can code on my phone ☠️☠️ and yes I'm coding this paragraph on my phone and yes I will do it many other times
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I forgor what did I name this painting like 5 times and I was reluctant to post it because I found the proportions really off and it didn't really have a name since I kept forgetting... Anyway this is my piece Fürsprecher cOmMeNt aNd sUbScRiBe iF YoU lIkE mY cOnTeNt,;,;,;.,,;.,;. the one on the left is just the piece itself and the one on the right is the same picture but with the sharpen filter that makes my art look 82x goofier and low quality (it's on purpose)
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I feel so crigne
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On that last entry...
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That feeling when you want to log absolutely everything but you feel sheepish
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Throwback to when I would watch crime docs over Die Prinzen or Femtanyl to realize that not eating kinda sucks and I should eat. Sh💤t why can't I eat
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After a year I finally got Toni's book and when I was bathing I had so so so so many specific memories of my life after I've acquired this hyperfixation, I came to the conclusion that it feels bad to be hated in this city but God gave me basic knowledge of geography and a mother who's a devotee of Thérèse de Lisieux for a reason. If the person I'm thinking of is reading this, someday I will tell you but oh my flipping von Neumann universe how will I even say this without cringing
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This list is terrible, how do some people in the course genuinely do this??? I solved a total of 3,416 exercises on two days. I feel so weak.
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Also ehieheiheheiei I got this midori and it will be insane
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Friday was weird, I almost threw up in the calc class but this made me giggle so much that it genuinely got better. The cure to paranoia and anorexia is goddamn finding the Epsteinvalues and Epsteinvectors to diagonalize your crimes or smth, haven't learned that yet but I know a mathematician who will surely help with it
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Frank Stella
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De stijl is the best thing I've ever seen I think I found myself
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Saw someone say the soundtrack for the Spiderman into the spider-verse first movie was good and decided to listen. Most of the songs are extremely well made orchestras, but this and this made me very uncomfortable, I realized that this is a strategy because the music gives me adrenaline enough for me to study as if a shotgun is coming for me by the stairs and thin walls slowly.
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Just discovered that the ℤ notation was always for Zahlen and now I'm so motivated to solve r.a. exercises because it feels like life always made sense, I just never look at it in the correct angle. The sensation that everything was always right and my confusion came from my imagination and paranoia is simply so pleasant
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I have been trying to learn bird photography, all of the good shots I got were out of pure luck and I wanted to actually know technique and how to take closer shots without being agressive. Whistles and better pictures coming soon! I discovered that there are cardinals in my region and it's one of my favorite birds, I'm going to chase them and try my hardest to take good pictures... Paroaria dominicana wait for my camera rahhh!!
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Smelled like heaven in that cup
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I think one of the ways I cope with anxiety is by repeating words I like in my mind. Back in August of 2025 I would keep thinking "gyasa", which means peanut in Hausa, I don't know why, but I think its sharp sound captivated me enough for me to keep repeating it for so long. It's funny, because my father does something similar with any words or names he likes, but it annoys me so much, it annoys me when I repeat words in my head, but in a way it also shuts the bad thoughts. Current word is probably "Sünder", which means sinner in German. Kind of dark but along with Gnade, Stunde and the simple unser it is the word in the Hail Mary that most drags my attention for some reason
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THIS. I think that everyone in my life knows that I have enormous fascination for pictures of notebooks and journal, I simply don't know how to explain it, but I love this genre so much that I have to go to Pinterest at least one time in my day to search for them and save a bunch of pictures that remember me of how much I enjoy paper
Notebook parade with my babies! In case anyone wonders:
A5: Cicero Caderneta Clássica sem pauta em caramelo (Classic Notebook unlined in caramel). I use it for detailed art or long writing for when I don't want to use loose paper instead!
A6: Tilibra black bound a6. I use it for doodles and ideas, along with rushed journaling sessions and quick reminders
A7: PlanWith Pocket Storage A7 Loose-Leaf Notebook. This is also my wallet, I write down long-term reminders, lists, collages, commonplace and others, it is very similar to the A6 but it's a lot more practical in a way...
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SERTÃOZINHO WORLD TOUR :DDDD catch me here tomorrow!
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I recently saw some media on the Orthodox/Russian method used in these paintings, I think the hard shadows really echo the esotericism of Orthodoxy in contrast with some Catholic pieces, which seem brighter in some way. It makes me want to paint...
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Ellsworth Kelly's "colors on a grid" reminds me of São Paulo, the childhood with my cousins , plays buried in concrete and every now and then these paintings that seemed as magical as they seemed geometrical. This brings up the most frequent images of that city and all the silly stories from that modern hell. Not hell, actually... Just similar to my interpretation of it in a way :3